why?

you know i just can't quite comprehend myself anymore.
why do i suddenly miss this particular person so much?
why it's unlike me? why do i suddenly yearn to see this person so much?
but yet i do not have the courage to initiate?

your little messages make me happy. the first time in so many years that i'm getting tickled by silly messages from someone who's not that close actually.

we met back then. you're good with your words. i appeared indifferent but i was actually already won over. that was why i was hesitant. i contemplated.
the feelings soon diminished but alas it came back again.

there are many doubts uncleared now.
i'm confused. baffled. defeated.

if you could be more serious, maybe there could be a chance, perhaps things would be very different now.

i wish there's something coming out of this.
because for some reason you suddenly seem so different from the rest.
i could actually clique with you the way i couldn't with others. what does this mean?