lost

apparently the boss's leaving the team in a month's time.
i should feel happy, should i?
but no i feel unexplanable prangs of guilt. was it my fault? but seriously the nightmares that she had given me would have killed me over and over, anyone with less persistence would have left several months ago.

so why is it that i'm not feeling happy at all? maybe cause she has suddenly turned into an angel, and is quite nice to me now. smses with smiley faces. my gosh. i was horrified.

well this only goes to show that: "there are no permanent enemies nor friends, just permanent interests". how apt. the irony of life just baffles me most of the time. leaves me lost and unsettled.