that special someone in life

life is peculiar.

you never know who's going to cross your path.

you never know who's going to develop an extraordinary friendship with you.

you never know who you're going to fall in love with.

"life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're going to get"...how true is that!

i'm always thinking about what sort of arrangement does God have in place for me.
I'm sure God makes things happen for a reason, makes us meet certain people, fall in love or get terribly hurt by certain people. it's all predestined and for a reason. to make us learn and cherish the next better person who is to come. Wow. don't i sound cheem? well just trying to comfort myself haha. trying to imagine that there'll be this special someone who will cross my path one day. to appear in my life, and i'll tell that someone "where have you been? i've been waiting for you. you are my miracle." Wowx2, i'm going insane, fancy sprouting such mushy rubbish. but oh well, i thrive on imagination and fantasy, ya know. they keep me going, yeah!

To that "special someone":

I believe there's a deep affinity between us. We are people who doesn't want to just succumb to fate, and choose to be together with people who are just not meant for us. We would rather choose to be alone, rather than stepping into something that we're not even sure of. We believe that love is not a trial and error thingy. A relationship is never supposed to be just something that fills our free time, it is something that completes us. That makes us learn more about ourselves, be more tolerant and patient with each other. Thank you for coming into my life! Thank you for being the person who's truly understanding, and always willing to listen and give to me.

To that "i thought you were special,but boy i was so wrong" someone:

I remember you saying some thing like a couple should enjoy each other's company, enjoy the moment with each other... but have you forgotten about a future planned out for each other? about including your gal in your blueprint for the future.

in retrospect, i seriously think you're just such a hedonistic freak. i take pity on you now, because i just wonder how a guy can actually be such a coward, not even knowing what he wants, fancy being a goody-two-shoes. just a sheep in wolf's clothing. hai...oh well now that we have nothing to do with each other. hope that you learn *rolls eye*

okay, this is such a weird post. but who cares. my blog man. bleh.

reports and only reports.

deadlines looming ahead. but oh well, the good thing is we're taking the reports one by one. Reports. OFF YOU GO!

Life will be good somehow. at least after 6th april, we'll all have FUN! FUN! what an unfamiliar word. heh.

10 things you wish you've said on the train (complete with gestures)

#1: hello! see see see, see what see? never see chio bu before ar? *shows middle finger*

#2: that's gross. carressing each other in public. can't you do it at home? for goodness sake. *rolls eyes*

#3: wait, are you talking about me? what are you whispering to your friend? nothing better to do is it?! %^$%&

#4: hahaha! i'm glad i'm not sitting beside you, 'cause i don't want your oily hair on my shoulder! hmmpphhh!

#5: hey, your fashion sense is WEIRD. really. don't you have a mirror at home? *stare in awe*

#6: wow! cool! your shoes are soooooooo nice! tell me where did you buy it from? *kneels down and appreciate*

#7: hey babe, you're gorgeous. but what's up with that freak beside you? *winks*

#8: *fidgets uncomfortably* so suave. oh wait, are you stealing glances at me too? tell me dude, do you have a gf? *winks*

#9: ARGH! stupid kids! stop screaming and get your butts on the seats!

#10: ooooh.....so that's what is going on with your life recently.....orh....*continues to eavesdrop*

the art of understanding

they say you need a lifetime to truly understand about a person.

i guess it's true. because i really don't understand myself at all.

i do weird things sometimes. oh well maybe it's all the time.

i've come across people who think that i'm weird, and doesn't even hesitate to tell me that as well. This makes me feel a little sad, 'cause no one really likes others, or even worse strangers telling you that you're weird. Being weird is almost equivalent to being crazy (really senseless crazy). And I find that much of an insult. Yes, so what if I myself agree that I'm weird. No one has the right to say that of me, because do you really understand me so much as to place a judgment on me? And this is probably the weakness of most people these days. They jump to conclusions, and make silly comments about others that are so wrong, even when they do not understand that person much. I'm not saying that I'm not guilty of this. In fact, I commit such mistakes all the time. So i'm learning to place myself in the other person's shoes, whenever I try to make a comment of him/her, regardless of good or bad.

Sigh. Learning to do so is yet another process that needs a lifetime.

nothing's going on...

it's been quite some time since I've blogged.

hmm...not because I was too busy, but because there's nothing much going on in my life anyway.

it's just erm...boring. other than the numerous deadlines. and the pressing workload, nothing's really going on in my life. really.