i don't like...

i don't like this feeling of being under-rated...

i don't like this feeling of being seen as a useless manipulated puppet...

i don't like this feeling of seeing my works being cast aside as if they are unworthy...

i don't like this feeling of being unnecessary....

i don't like this feeling of not being able to do anything to help in my own work...

i don't like this feeling when I thought I've done my best in the things that I'm supposed to do, only to know that they are of not much of a use anyway...

i'm trying to dispel these negative emotions.

i'm not angry with anyone, i'm just hating this screwed-up feeling inside of me.

this pride devours me from within, making things terribly miserable for me.