25th birthday

yours sincerely has just celebrated her 25th birthday.but is still feeling lost and directionless.
besides good health, happinesss, she hopes for a more fulfilling life.
ok i'm rambling again...but seriously i'm just religiously married to my job and my exercise regime. what else to look out for in life leh?
ok you may say "how about love?" my answer is sometimes. i mean i'm abit petrified when i think of myself being a spinster all my life, or only wearing the bridal gown at the age of 65(if i'm still alive), breasts sagging, face wrinkled like orange peel. but if i'm not getting the best man , why bother about love then?
i made a foolish decision to go to this "singles hang out outing" a while ago, and i regretted terribly. i mean i went with an open mind, comforting yuan that yah it's just a step to widen your social circle, to not be a hermit. but as much as you wish people who go there think the same as you, guys usually function as direct opposites of women. they went with an agenda in mind-to get a girlfriend. it's as if they came with a mental checklist. religion-checked. looks-checked.communication languages-checked. like wth. why don't you BUY a wife, isn't that simpler? many men said that women have their noses up in the air, too arrogant, and have too high expectations. from my perspective, i seriously think the problem lies with the men, if you can't meet up to the expectations, why don't you IMPROVE yourself, and up your standards abit in order to match up to the women. instead of asking the woman to downgrade herself and be with a thrash like you. wake up people wake up. yes we don't expect our love life to be like a idol drama, but come on human beings should have expectations, if not how will this society improve right????
so i'm still rather critical of men these days. i don't think i'll find someone who can truly make me happy....so it's still endless work for me. and being the exercise enthusiast that i've become.

我一直都在我的人生的门外。从没真正踏进去过。从没真正享受、沉浸其中过。
我看着每一个人，人人都有自己的志向、自己的方向。
就连卖鸡饭的大叔都知道自己要往哪里去吧。
知识为什么就会为人添烦恼。
要求让人永远不满足。
我呢？我对于自己的人生一知半解，更别提以后了。好像从天堂跌入谷底。无所适从。