An Isolate At Work

Thursday, December 25, 2008

the songs that bring back the memories

"And so it is.
Just like you said it would be.
Life goes easy on me.
Most of the time.
And so it is.
The shorter story.
No love, no glory.
No hero in her sky
.......
I can't take my mind off you.
I can't take my mind...My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new"

Lyrics from: The Blower's Daughter, Damien Rice

"Why don't we talk about it?
Why do you always doubt That there can be a better way?
It doesn't make me want to stay...
You said we're fatally flopped
When I'm easily bored
Is that okay?
Strike me off your list
Made this the last kiss
I'll walk away
....................
Given time we'll forget
Let's pretend we never meet
Screw you I didn't like your taste
Anway, I chose you
Let's all gone to wasted Saturday
I'll go out and find another you"

Lyrics from: Sexed Up, Robbie Williams

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

not too bad

well she's not too bad-looking.
just really different.
can't be compared. that's like asking if beef tastes nicer than tiramisu. when they are both essentially of different genres.
not feeling too bitter about it. just that it proves that the bad men does get it all. get it fast.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

why?

you know i just can't quite comprehend myself anymore.
why do i suddenly miss this particular person so much?
why it's unlike me? why do i suddenly yearn to see this person so much?
but yet i do not have the courage to initiate?

your little messages make me happy. the first time in so many years that i'm getting tickled by silly messages from someone who's not that close actually.

we met back then. you're good with your words. i appeared indifferent but i was actually already won over. that was why i was hesitant. i contemplated.
the feelings soon diminished but alas it came back again.

there are many doubts uncleared now.
i'm confused. baffled. defeated.

if you could be more serious, maybe there could be a chance, perhaps things would be very different now.

i wish there's something coming out of this.
because for some reason you suddenly seem so different from the rest.
i could actually clique with you the way i couldn't with others. what does this mean?

getting frustrated...

-of people who are too quick to criticize all the time.

-of people who do not reply to messages, when you are looking forward to them.

- of not being the perfect person.

- of being a bitch most of the time.

-getting blamed for others' mistakes

Saturday, December 13, 2008

untitled

i am usually zonked out after work, that kinda explains the infrequency of the blog entries.
pardon me for that, but i guess it really doesn't make any difference anyhow, cause no one really cares anyway.

but just some interesting stuff to share for the past 2 months...it's kinda weird. the frequency of uncles and aunties popping THE question to me is getting higher. so what on earth is this question??

"ARE YOU MARRIED YET?~!"
MY GOSH, imagine my horror! my trauma!
it's puzzling, a year ago, everyone's asking me whether am i an intern, in the short span of just one year, the questions have miraculously evolved into much thought-provoking ones.
damn, and you would have guessed what's the next question that follows.
"SO DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW?"

........NO NO I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND!YES I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE ONE....ok that sounds kinda desperate,but heck whatever. the bioclock's kinda ticking.
my babes would have shared my exact sentiments.
does birds of the same feathers flock together? all my chill-out babes are all swinging single. woohoo like me. and mind you, ALL OF THEM ARE HOT BABES.
pretty,intelligent, stylish babes, just like ahem me?(sheepish)

so why are we still bloody single?i can never give myself a good explanation for that.
i guess the common answer would be we are too picky. but too picky?why not?we're choosing companions, love interests. it's not like your usual supermarket or foodcourt affair, where if there's no char kway teow, you'd just make do with kway teow soup. char kway teow and kuay teow soup are completely different right, so why make that horrible compromise only to regret it??

so is it the fault of singaporean men?are they not up to standards?or are they just nuts?
that i have no answer either, i haven't had that much experience with singaporean men.that last and the only one that i had does not admit to be one. i mean the singaporean part. obviously.
i guess most men these days are kinda weird, they kinda get impatient, and would like to shove all details of their life story from nursery to the current phase all at one go. but hey hey i'm not interested in your life story, didn't my expression already tell you so?why don't you get the hint.

yes the men just don't get it.

and i know it's a generalised statement, but the prominent reason behind my sad singlehood is that men are boring. my friends, ok in particular trix has always said the guy who's meant for me must be an extremely interesting guy,because i'm too complicated. he has to have all sorts of amazing ideas just to get me interested.because i'm much too desensitized by the shit i see on tv these days. damn the job.

it's gotten to the point where i could just rant on and there's no full stop. but alas i need to wake up in about 5 hrs' time for my event. ok it's tadas for now. to be continued...